Why I Love Helen So Much!

The ideal girl friend is a myth, just like the ideal boy friend.  I mean what guy wouldn't want a supermodel, millionare, freak.  But as great as it might sound it wouldn't be.  After reading Helen's post I would like to agree with it for the most part. :) "Go, go, ego boost!"  But Even if I do those thing I don't do them perfectly.  I just try my best.   Thats all you can do is give everything that you have and let the lord of hosts decide.

There are so many reasons that I love Helen.  Its not just the fact that she is hot and asian, sometimes I think that she thinks thats the reason. But I am here to set the record straight.  One reason that I love Helen so much is her sweetness. When she tells me how good I look or how I make her so happy I just melt. And on top of that when she is sweet is always surprises me.  And I don't mean that in a bad way like it never happens or anything, it is a good kind if surprise.  On top of that Helen has some fight in her and can give me a hard time which just offers even more contrast to her sweetness and makes it sweeter.  OMG I just realized how white I am. :p  I like sweet and sour. AHHHHHH I will never hear the end of it now.

I also love how dorky Helen can be.  We can trade manga, maybe some hentai, or play mmorpgs and it just feels natural.  Just the other night she was telling me about a new manga she was reading and I could just see her face light up and the excitement in her voice.  I rely on Helen for many things in this department.  When ever there is a new manga or game coming out she sends me a link or makes me try playing it.  I think she knows me pretty well because most of the stuff she picks or thinks that I might like, I end up liking. :)

One weird thing about me is that I am a very hard worker and stick to plans that I make but when it come to little every day things I let them slide.  I guess If I don't see the end goal or I am not sure what I want to do with something then I kinda just stare at it.  Helen makes me think about things and where I want to go in the future.  Helen has a goal and is working twards it and that is very attractive.  It gives me something to aspire towards and makes me want to be a better person. Or at the very least to not be a dead beat and have her leave me for someone better. :p

Another thing that I love about Helen is the fact that she takes care of her self the best she can.  One of my friends, who is married, once told me a story.  His wife and him were talking about some mater or another and were fighting and he ended up telling his wife, "If you don't care and respect yourself then how can you expect others to do the same."  We are both still young and have a lot do learn but I think Helen does her best and makes smart choices because of it.

And the most important reason that I love Helen is because she is more forgetful then I am. :P  Like all the time she will forget our aniversary  or other things along those lines so I can never get in trouble for anything except not reminding her lol.

I really do love Helen so much but we still have a lot to work on.  I can be very dificult to understand and my world views are next to impossible to understand.  Some times she thinks that I am a downer. And maybe I am. But I don't mean to be. I am a very hapy person but sometimes I think it is misunderstood. I just don't see many things as bad or negative. I also don't get very angry or upset most of the time just because whats the point. Its just a thats how life is sorta thing.  Another thing is that I can be "untrustworthy" I am good to my word.  If I say something I do it.  Its just that I don't trust others.  But I do trust others only to do what is in their nature to do thats all.  I don't trust anyone do do anything that I tell them to do just to do what is in their nature.  If I don't trust other people its just because I don't want anything to happen to Helen.  I never tell her what to do or who to do it with I just like to know and want her to be safe.  I never want her to have to find out how dangerous and cold the world can really be.  That doesn't mean that there isn't good and love in the world. It just means that there a a lot of bad people out there and we mush be mindful of everything.

I always have much to think on and these posts are for Helen as much as anyone else.  They help her know what I am thinking and feeling.  But the most important thing is that I love her and as I say again I am not perfect no mater how hard I try.  She just has to help me along the way to be perfect for her.

Tell me anything and I will listen.